So I have been MIA this past week due to the entire shift in America’s education paradigm. I am tired, but things are going well. I feel like I missed some awesome words…maybe I’ll go back and revisit them after Lent is over. This seems to be a calming exercise for me.

Today’s word is Messy. I’m late to the game as this is after midnight, but here is my contribution. I think this word is perfect when it describes life.

The reading is from 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal”. 

April 1, 2008. The day we miscarried our little bean. Twelve years ago already. Where does the time go? (If you know anyone who is looking for honesty while miscarrying, please share my post from then! )

Remember the song my dear friend Rachel lent me which helped me in so many ways. I listen to it every April 1st. It makes me cry, but it also fills my heart with joy, sadness, thanksgiving, and peace. (What a gamut of emotions!)

But, how perfect is that word for today (or yesterday?). I could link it to how crazy life has been in the past 2 weeks as an educator….but I want to look at it as in my life. A life. Anyone’s life.

Life is messy. LIfe is tough. LIfe is joyous. Life is sad. Life is heartbreaking. Life is love. Live is amazing. LIfe is hard. Life encompasses all of these things, but most of all…..out of the messy comes LOVE, and JOY.

If I hadn’t miscarried, I never would have helped people through reading my blog (Miscarriage 101 is my 2nd highest read post of all time due to the many google searches for miscarriage.)

Not sure if we would have Kirby in our lives….. and that would have been a HUGE void.

God has our answers. God has a plan. God helps us through the messy. And I tonight, Thank God for all of that and so much more.

I still don’t have to like April Fool’s Day…..12 years later. And that is ok, too!

The photos I will post today always tug at my heart strings. I entered Punky in a “Modeling” Session…..but it ended up costing us nearly $400 when all was said and done. And….my reasoning foro spending taht much money to Hubby was that “this would be Punky’s last photo session as “an only child,” so why not capture his spunk, his silliness, and his joy. 🙂

I always think of that when I see these pics….God would have it that Punky would have to wait 4 more years, but we think it was worth the wait!