Have  you ever had one of those days where you just feel down.    That’s me today.  I just can’t place my finger on why…

We’ve been attending an Alpha course at church.

The Alpha course is organized as a series of sessions over ten weeks.   Each session starts with a meal, followed by a talk (often a video of one by Nicky Gumbel) and then discussion in small groups. The talks aim to cover the basic beliefs of the Christian faith. The complete list of talk titles, which follows the chapters of Nicky Gumbel’s book Questions of Life, is:

• Is there more to life than this?
• Who is Jesus?
• Why did Jesus die?
• How can I be sure of my faith?
• Why and how should I read the Bible?
• Why and how should I pray?
• How does God guide us?
• Who is the Holy Spirit?
• What does the Holy Spirit do?
• How can I be filled with the Holy Spirit?
• How can I resist evil?
• Why and how should I tell others?
• Does God heal today?
• What about the church?
• How can I make the most of the rest of my Life?

We hit each topic each week.  I really have learned so much.  It has also reinforced my faith as well as my ability to think “deeper” about life and how God talks to us each day.  But all of these talks have my brain whirling on the purpose and meaning of life.  That could cause a girl a bit of stress…trying to figure that out! 

It really gets me thinking each day.   I mean, how many times has something happened in our lives and afterwards we look back and have our “A-Ha” moments where we knew God had a hand in how things worked out for us.   You grow up always hearing “God never gives you more than you can handle…”  “Things happen for a reason…”  “God knows what He is doing…” But, as you get older, does that ability to look back take less time than it did when you were younger?   Are your “A-ha” moments closer together? It just seems that I am calmer and more relaxed since I have figured this out.

I still have a lot of problems with things that happen in our world.  (As much as Mr. Deity makes me laugh, I can’t help but hope that it’s not like that!)  (Thank you Tinjaw for introducing us to Mr. Deity!) 

So, I guess I’m not really down…I’d call it more introspective…thoughtful…  There certainly is a lot to think about!